magandang umaga / throwing things out there and trying to find out which sticks

Hello, 6:00 am na. Gising pa ako. Haay buhay. Ang hirap talaga mag-adjust ng body clock lalo na kung madaming distractions. What those distractions are, I would rather opt to not list here.

Sometimes, times like these, I am led to believe that I really do live a practically very unproductive life, both in and outside of work.

In part, I would have appreciated being asked to be come an account manager myself, not because I was actually considering it nor that I was actually going to take the job anyway, but just the thought of being recognized for what I can possibly do as an account manager, of what I could possibly bring to the table and what kind of asset I would become in that role is enough for me. I would have been flattered and elated to have been asked.

I just thought of an idea for a story. It will be about someone who cannot sleep. I can totally relate. How long can anyone last without sleeping?

Meron bang sakit na kung saan bawal matulog ang isang tao? Bakit naman siya hindi matutulog? Kasi hindi siya makatulog.

Kung huling linggo mo na sa mundo, ilang araw na lang ang buhay mo, matutulog ka pa ba? Paano niya malalaman na hindi na siya pwedeng matulog? Paano mo siya papanatiliing gising sa buong kuwento? Saan ka magsisimula?

Magsisimula ka sa dulo, isang oras na lang. Lahat ng mangyayari, paatras. Palayo nang palayo mula sa ngayon. Puro flashback. Tapos babalik agad sa ngayon. Sa gitna ng lahat hindi mo mamamalayan kung alin na ang totoo, ang flashback, o kung nananaginip ka na. At one point or another, naka-microsleep ka na. Hindi mo namamalayan na tulog ka na pala. ang kaso, hindi ka nga pwedeng matulog. Bakit ka ba hindi pwedeng matulog? Siguro isa kang adik. Pero hindi pa nila alam yun. Dahan-dahan lang nilang malalaman. Unti-unti.

There will be a lot of moments where you’ll just probably stare into a blank space and then imagine things. Madaming pumpasok sa isip mo. Teka lang, sobrang bilis, sobrang dami, sabay-sabay sila nangyayari. Pero nangyayari nga ba sila? O baka naman nananaginip ka na? Yun lang, hindi mo talaga alam.

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